one bright day to “un-sadden” that sad day

i finally remembered why i wanted to blog instead of sleep last night. i guess my 7 minutes of blogging.. well it was actually 8 minutes – didn’t capture my original thoughts.
just the other day, when my head was swimming and it was no where to the direction of “work”, i went to my blog and looked. there was a “sad” post but it was kept blank for a reason. i knew it was intentionally kept blank and realized i can’t seem to recall what might have happened that day or event so i left it. within 24 hours, when i least expected, events triggered my memory.. and the other person’s too. we must have sat there for an hour in silence. it was a sad event and it was left there “unfixed”. i guess there just wasn’t something strong enough to push us to get thru it? i am not sure… i still don’t understand how a simple morning turned into me sitting in the car crying for hours. and mc d breakfast down the garbage. and that was the last time i had mc d breakfast. in between there were times.. but it always ended up as no-go. finally.. a free buttermilk biscuit sandwich and some tumbling from my tummy.. broke the silence between us. i really don’t care who did what, who said what.. why and so forth. i knew stress was a big factor. and yes it shouldn’t have or needed to end a morning like that but it happened already and trying to figure out who said what that bothered the other.. well it was everything.. whole situation handed badly.. we both know. but it ended there. and continued on hours later almost like it didn’t happen except for avoiding mc d. well then.. i took the first half step to suggest to go back to mc d in the morning.. the other …finally went along with it.. and it turned into a bright and beautiful day yesterday. even my bed hair was awsome.. i went to work with my bed hair (hardly combed) but it looked like i had spent an hour on it! anyways… back to work