November

here i am, blogging in the middle of work. i just had a 4 day weekend which honestly went by too fast. it’s november and i think it was predetermined when i was bored that this is to be on of my most confusing months in the whole year. it’s not really confusing but emotionally confusing. i have emo problems.. it’s not quite deadly but deadly enough where i have trouble getting thru life. a "few" more days left..  luckily it falls on a sunday today which is my busiest day of the week..

aside from that.. my stupid back is giving me problems now that i stopped going to yoga..  i dont’ know what i’m going to do.. i should find a yoga class closer to here i guess.. there’s no way i can make it to classes when i work so far far away now. i tried to finish cleaning up the place last night and make some room for me to do some stretching i guess. it’s weird but i have a habit of doing cleaning bewteen like 11 pm – 3 am. i am so close to finish reorganizing the whole room. unpacked the last box.. and dug out all my winter sweaters

"you must have had a broken heart" by westlife is on right now.. *sigh* that’s one of the things i had to deal with this weekend.. 2 broken hearts actually.. not just one. well i didn’t know how to deal with it except to cry..  i think i finally know why people tend to throw out stuff right away after a relationship.. me of course keep everything unless i had to throw it out for a reason or another..  but it’s devastating once it pops up when you least expect it. the untold silence..   it still slightly bothers me.. i still kept it.. silly me, huh? ..

the notion of me going to see a psychiatrist .. well i don’t think i need to anymore.. regardless.. i’m bloody scared to

tubby is absolutely the best cat for me.. there are times where he would just push your hand away from the keyboard and lick your face.. but for the whole time i was in bed.. in the morning he waited until 1 pm before he started meowing for food.. he didn’t meow until he figured out that i was awake..  i fell asleep at 7.. and he just kinda sat there or was sleeping..  just before i went to bed at 1 am… i was wondering if he would be running abouts if i dont’ stick him in his cage but nope.. he just sat on the side of the bed until i woke up this morning. i woke up a few times during the night and of course i peeked at him to see if he was still there or not. he’s huge now. 12 lbs? weights a ton but i don’t think he knows that because he’s still leaping around chasing after my toe and often he just lands on it <_>