it’s tuesday already… z is 5 months now. suddenly my days seems to just flash by.. well just the past 2 days. i don’t feel productive.. there’s always something to do.. stuff around the house i guess which seems to be endless esp with z around. all her stuff uses up the whole top rack of the dishwasher – everyday! not feeling productive bother me quite a lot yet each time z laughs or cries i tend to forget what was i going to do. it’s not until this hour of the day where i look around and go "holy crap… what did i do today… " .. almost nothing – or so it seems.
a lot is still in my head.. talking about it just keeps me calm for the time being. there is nothing that i can do that i haven’t already done… just waiting for the time pass a bit which tends to be the hard part because it seems i’m kinda useless in some ways. oh well. that is life.
life is filled with colors.. bright beautiful ones and of course the dark gloomy ones. we just have to learn how to deal with the dark gloomy ones, have faith the bright beautiful ones are up ahead and to absorbed the whole process… when the bright beautiful colors arrive.. treasure it – hold on to it while it passes by you, hold on to the memories and use it to guide you thru the dark gloomy era. make the best out of it.
bb's memories 