5 am thursday morning

i think i have slept about 90 min the whole night.. i just can’t sleep.. i don’t know what this feeling is.. is it anger? is it disappointment? i don’t know.. i just want to cry but trying really hard not to. it bothers me..   good intentions are there but i don’t know why it just turns out bad.. what happened to rational responsibilities? is something wrong with me? or things that are happen just don’t jive with what was originally agreed upon (my expectations)? 5 days straight where i haven’t gotten enough sleep and my cold took a turn in the other direction.. i’m tired.. i just want to sleep…..